the words no body read

in the sorrow of my life
heading to 12.12.12
heading to "if tomorrow never come"
heading to the last clue that i got from my knights voices : "before thursday night"

i chin up and look at down, down to earth
look up my last home in the ground

this is the words
first words for the man i love the most : ayah
Ayah, I am so weak and like living in the edge of sadness when i stare to what happpening to you now
not because you have to lay down in the rest of your life
with nothing to say in words
no....
I have so enermous of envious feeling to you
cos in the end of your gold time you make me proud more and more
wishing so hard to be like you when i got sick i wish everyone love me back as pretty as you got now..
beautiful tears for that, i stand ovation for you...
but something that really  meant for me is..i am not strong enough to show you up
to show you something that you want for me...something will never ever be a real
please forgive me ayah,
I cant dedicate a sacred wedding in the front of you....
i am so sorry,,,,